It’s less than a month until I leave for Australia, and the pre-departure nerves have hit. For the past year I have been very confident in telling people my plan to travel to Australia and backpack for a year or so, I have been very casual about talking about it.
The conversation often goes like this:
Person: “So are you at university?”
Me: “I’ve just graduated this summer.”
Person: “What are you planning to do now?”
Me: “I’m going travelling around Australia in November.”
Person: “Oh wow, who are you going with?”
Person: “Wow you’re so brave/ crazy.”
I’ve always found people’s reactions to my solo-travelling plan funny, but now I feel like I’m starting to realise that what I’m about to do is crazy.
I am about to fly to the other side of the world, by myself, and travel around a new country for a year, by myself.
The reason why I wanted to do this trip in the first place was because I wanted to be completely independent, and to prove it to myself. Having someone to go with me never crossed my mind, because it was never an option, I’m travelling to Australia alone because I wanted to go alone. It’s still what I want, but sometimes it feels like my past-self has set myself up.
Personally I don’t like admitting that I’m nervous, but this week I’ve had to acknowledge that the nerves are natural. I’m about to leave everything I know behind in England for a year or so. As I write this I think about how I’m going to leave my laptop behind, I use it everyday, but I won’t be using it for a year. I’m about to say goodbye to friends who I won’t see properly for a year, and my family. A whole year, potentially two if I complete my farm work and earn a second year visa.
To get past the nerves, I remind myself that I want it more than I’m afraid of it. When I meet people who say they’d like to go travelling but can’t because they’re scared or just don’t have the confidence to go. I remind myself that I’m lucky that I want to travel more than I am afraid of what might happen whilst I’m out there. I’ve made it this far, working hard and saving for the past 8 months, all the while telling people about my travelling plans. It will all be worth it when I get to Australia, and I’m sure I’ll wonder why I got nervous in the first place.
Right now I am freaking out about it, but underneath the nerves I honestly can’t wait to go.
Planning to travel long term? Let me know how you’re feeling! Any advice on how to overcome nerves welcome!